About a year ago, a friend recommended that I start writing.
~ Just let it all out ~
No thinking, no planning, just write. Write my emotions, memories, all of my feelings. And I did. I let it flow, I let the pain, the love, the joy, flow on those pastel cream pages.
I found peace in my writing. I also learned that I really love to write. I had written a few pieces years back for a local newspaper but I never really pushed myself to pursue it further.
Once I began to write, I learned more about myself then I had planned. There was a new understanding as to WHY I had hit a low point in my life. I never told anyone about all of the physical, sexual and mental abuse I endured early on in my childhood up until my late teens. On the outside, I was getting through life putting on a front of this happy-go-lucky girl who was living her dream. In the inside, I was falling apart more and more.
It wasn’t until later on in life that I saw the light at the end of the dark tunnel. A dark tunnel I had been lost in for so long.
My pastor asked me if I would share my story, my heartache, pain and healing process. There was no way! How could I open myself up to strangers for them to pick apart every aspect of my being, to judge me, judge my family? I wasn’t ready and I didn’t think that I ever would be. I also received the same support and encouragement from my husband, my best friend. Honestly, if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t be here today.
A year later, here I am now. Not 100% sure that I am doing the right thing. I am going to open up myself anyways, to you and to anyone else who comes along.
Don’t worry, this blog isn’t entirely dark & gloomy.
I’ll share those tough moments but I’ll also share all the light, the love and the faith that has brought us this far. I’ll also share childhood memories, marriage, balancing schedules, our crazy adventures, life on the ranch, cooking, traveling, raising country kids and the most daunting challenge: taming Hunter.
I hope that you are able to stick around and enjoy this crazy, fun filled ride!